Subject: Having troubles giving up smoking, Zyban does help.

From: "Mason Oconnor" <[email-masked]>
Date: Sun, 26 Apr 2009 08:03:04 +0100

and how every plan ive ever made has been reconstructed into something harder and better than what i laid out as my own agenda 

again happy things

we lived on a corner in a typical oc tract neighborhood 

lunch whole wheat pita with tuna or deli meat or a big salad with grilled chicken 

messes are piling up around me making it hard to relax and get well i cant cuddle grant or cate- they need to stay well- so they are steering clear of me i am bored and tired and achy

well as it turns out it was me who needed her the most i think if the test of the greatest among us is the one who will be the servant than penny wins in this houseok animal peoplei get it i really really get it

cate what did you play on the computer then

one more thought about best friends

dinner i kind of snack or have a lunch type meal again dinner is tricky because i still need to prepare dinner for my family so i do but im not super hungry at night so i just eat whatever broccoli a little of what theyre having or snacky stuff or chicken wings or crispy thin crust pizza but i always end the day with a low carb ice cream bar

hey my little family

we gave the universe one out- if grant found a job he loved before springtime wed stay put even though we wanted to go to cali really bad and even though grant had been looking for a different job for a long time

i do have one faithful companion who is braving the germs penny the pug russell

it was the first time i realized that things dont always go how you think they will and that it all can turn out better than you imagined

im loving babies & mamas sunshine happy rooms and cool colors

when cate is too scared to go downstairs penny will go with her and everything is all right she lets cate dress her up for weddings or try to ride her or pull her by the tail almost daily and even knowing the torture she will soon endure she gets so excited when cate gets home from school

i spent a few years calming down my teen angst and attempting to grow up i loved san luis obispo i was ready to chill there for good 

remember how i was so proud that my room was clean and i was knitting well i still am