Subject: This blue tablet kills ignorance in every woman.

From: "Ryan Esparza" <[email-masked]>
Date: Sat, 4 Apr 2009 14:43:35 +0200

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they make me happy
im just obsessed with him 
i bet that block is not nearly as big as i remember it being but i remember it being quite a trip

what a few hours on a sunny day can do for you
and i cheat like alot well usually i ease up on weekends but i feel so crappy and bloated again that i cant wait to start eating right on monday but i have kind of had to tell myself this is just the new lifestyle and if i want to indulge every now and again im going to cause id rather die than not be able to have some chips and guac or a slice of cake every now and again so if i eat like this 90% of the time then ive noticed that my body or the scale doesnt mind if i wander in my choices a bit the other 10% exercising everyday helps with this too i feel like its a great trade off- feeling great and a regular period for a little self control

and then that got me thinking that really its not just while laying in bed that she is watching out for me 
i thought id live there forever one day when i was 12 my dad quit his job and we moved to lake tahoe it rocked my stable world 

i am determined par
project 31 is rolling along i have donations for every single item i need for the 31 newborn kits and lots of fabric donations and i will sew until there are 31 baby quilts too thank you SO much i was overwhelmed by the awesome response packages are starting to arrive i will be sure to post some pictures when i get it all together and ready to take to the humanitarian center my heart is happy

but the commonality between each experience was- it was out of my hands i occasionally fell in love with someone who couldnt be had i occasionally had to run from someone who wouldnt let me go
i was born in orange county where my parents had lived in the same house for like 20 years they had both lived in so cal all their lives 

what do you look for in a best friend
acre of land is my favorite song of his 

he is the perfect mix to me of blues and folk and funk and feeling 
cate did you love disney games on the computer when you were five

secondly i must say i know carbohydrates arent bad i know bread is life and wheat is the staff of life a lot of fruits and veggies are quite sugary/ starchy for almost everyone eating all these foods in moderation will do them fine but remember i am trying to regulate an abnormality to a diabetic sugar is the devil to someone with celiac disease wheat is the devil to someone with milk allergies dairy is the devel and what ive come to believe that for some women who dont ovulate high blood sugar may be their devil and it definately is mine
well just as we were making preparations to get moving grant was granted that job he wanted right here in utah i guess were staying put (sorry shellie i wanted to live by you and drive to see ray and the beach on weekends real bad)

i will i will i will please hold me accountable if you dont see the results posted next week the inspiration pieces
well as it turns out it was me who needed her the most i think if the test of the greatest among us is the one who will be the servant than penny wins in this houseok animal peoplei get it i really really get it

(but honestly i dont snack alot when you eat so much protein you dont get hungry as often through the day)
from anthro

i spent a few hours organizing my yarn and needles into that armoire 
women who have these hormonal issues typically carry alot of weight around the middle (due to the out of control insulin and resultant too high of testosterone) and a high protein and fiber diet combined with low carbs really helps with that an added benefit is that these types of foods are so filling and you avoid the highs and crashes that people with blood sugar problems live by

a few months in the life of this infertile girl
when cate is too scared to go downstairs penny will go with her and everything is all right she lets cate dress her up for weddings or try to ride her or pull her by the tail almost daily and even knowing the torture she will soon endure she gets so excited when cate gets home from school

i swear nothing makes me happier than a peaceful space and some needles 
we lived on a corner in a typical oc tract neighborhood